Weird milestone

A weird milestone.. TODAY.. i weighed 288.6 i looked through my past weights on my fitday throughout my sporatic dieting or regimens i went through trying to lose some of the weight...  but i found this

"06/22/2004 288.6 lbs"

Sort of funny... like i traveled 4 and a half years through time. MEH,  i probably looked better then! LMAO!

2 week Progress

First, Let me say that this has been very difficult for me since i started. I never really have things easy. My load weight amounted to 7.4 pounds total which i did NOT drop( like everyone else on the planet) all of that weight until i hit "PAR" on the morning of 12/9. That sucks, bigtime, as i was/am disouraged and pissy and actually MAD that i was NOT cheating, i stopped eating the beef and just stuck to the chicken, and cut out the fruit because i wasnt losing... and i was doing really shitty.

In the last 5 days, though.. i have lost 5 pounds. So thats good, but i still look at it as 14 days, and 5.2 pounds. Which.. is a sucky average im not so sure that i couldnt have pulled off with LC. I fel much more satisfied doing lowcarb compared to protocol. i do want to contribute some of that weight to the magnesium chelate ive been taking. I hadnt "GONE" in over ten days, i gained 6 inches just in my waistline( as of now im FINALLY down 5 of those).. as you can imagine i would have lit a preists robe on fire if i had the chance --- i was so pissed.

I upped my dosage to 175 iu and feel thats better, plus it will get me off of this a lot sooner. i feel i need a break. a week to eat what i want, when i want so i can start anew( probably lowcarb for at least another month) and i will not be loading. I should have thought it through that when youre lowcarbing you are already abundant in fats, and that i should NOT have loaded with fat and starches, i should have just ate a regular lowcarb day the first two loading days. Yesterday i prefilld syringes and came up with an extra .10cc. i injected that also. i will be watching the next three days to see if i notice a dramatic drop one day. If so, i will be uppingmy dosage again. When i first bought my supplies, i was planning on going 250iu anyways... so this is nothing undecided for me. I decided to go 125 to start  beause another website is full of women doing this and having no problems.

On a side note.. it pisses me off in a way( but happy for their success) that some people cheat on protocol and still lose, or possibly go up and then lose that plus MORE the next day. I guess my body doesnt like giving it up. 

Aftermath of the "LOAD" days!

WEll, it happened. I gained a total of 7.2 pounds after two days of loading. i hit back up to 301.00. I kinda knew it would because i started within ten pounds of it.. but..  at least i can say i am doing it properly and i loaded to my capacity.. tried not to make myself sick though. the thing is, i ate bad shit but not really a TON of shit.

So, here is to my first VLCD day number one. i cant wait to see some loss tomorrow.. at least half that load weight i hope!

After the first loading day..

i cannot eat alot anymore. thats for sure. i had:

Two slivers of cheese cake
tapioca pudding with pineapple chunks in it
provolone and cswiss cheese and pepperoni
 orange soda
Salt and vinegar potato chips
4 sandwhich cookies
French fries( about half a large)
 big mac ( most of it)
 large sweet tea


 felt like i was going to barf. full to the gills.


this morning i an up 2.2 pounds. today thankfully is the last day of loading... then on to the diet. I have to preweigh my meats and freeze most of them so i dont have to mess with gloves when im on the actual diet.

i also have to buy some dish gloves. yay me LOL!

Offically starting HCG!

I weighed naked( cover your eyes) for my end LC weight and beginning HCG weight.

293.8 that is 44.2 pounds lost on my own!

I dug out my old spandex exercise pants that i remember wearing at 260. UM.. SIZE XL.. i wrestled them on, put on a bra and went and took pictures of myself in front of my white pantry door( hows that for ironic?). OMG.. JUST OMG.. and this is 44 pounds down! I figured if i ever DID become a success i will want to see these, there is no law that i have to put these on the internet... and if i did, i damn well look ****ing smoking in the after pictures! holy crap!


The injection was a lot easier than i thought. i felt a small twinge but i think i moved the needle or was pressing a little fast, so i slowed down, waiting five seconds and pulling the needle out... again small twinge cause i dont think i pulled it out exactly straight. I was actually really really nervous.. heart beating, shaking a little. Which is odd, cause im not afraid of needles. i think its just... the injecting part. but.. that was not bad at all.. 

On to loading now!!!* play theme music*

I am starting HCG tomorrow!!!

I am so excited and a little bit scared!! i still have one more weigh in tomorrow for lowcarb , and as my official start weight for HCG. As of today i have lost 43.4 pounds on my own...

! am trying not to get a grandiose plan in my head.. but i just hope i can lose at least 50 pounds on this HCG, not  become immune or have tom problems.. and not cheat!!! i have been lowcarbing since nov. 4th and havent fell off the wagon, so i really dont see a problem with me eating on p2 of protocol. If i can lose 50 pounds, that would put me only 6 pounds away from 100 total loss... so thats what i put my ticker goal as. if i can lose 100 total by my birthday  March 11th i will have a baby kickin fit.. in a good way!!! even if it takes me til my anniversary in April, i will be ecstatic!!

For the first time in my life, no matter how little, i have set a realistic weightloss goal and acheived it! When i started out, i just desperatedly wanted out of the 300s( i know im still very close to that and think gee i shouldnt even open my yap) but then i think... hey.. that was 38 pounds just to GET to 300! I am proud of myself. I am ready to shed this weight and start living. I am tired of being fat. TIRED! I will be updating this EVERY DAY, and keeping a journal on myhcg journal also for support there. but they have some forum problems sometimes and lose posts so this will be my staple, and im using gyminee and fitday also to track my weight and food.

Wish me luck!

3.2 ounces, eating out, and birthday cake!

 First, let me say I am a bitch. I know it. But i normally try to curb myself ESPECIALLY when talking to someone in the food service industry.

Yesterday morning i woke up, did the usual, and weighed myself. Only a .2 pound loss. BOO.. but.. for someone as big as me, you can guess that i would stab a nun with her own crucifix to rather LOSE .2 pounds, than GAIN that same amount. So i decided to just keep on keepin' on and  hope for a bigger loss the next day.

Once again, hubby wanted to eat out. I agreed and i ordered some chop steak( hamburger) thing with swiss, onions and mushrooms on it. It came with one trip to the salad bar, and french fries. I asked the nice waitress if i could not get the fries, but instead get broccoli. She was.. utterly confused. So i explained it a few more times that i am abstaining from eating potatos and that i would really love some broccoli in place of them. She agreed politely and said she would check if the kitchen had them. At that point i just sorta glanced a "look" at my  husband who just glanced that same "look" right back at me.. since there were pictures of broccoli included in other dishes on the menu.. in bright pictures. She then comes back and says that the cook will take some off of the salad bar and cook it for me. I thanked her and told her that that would be fine... but.. i then gave my husband yet another look and said.. GEE.. i wonder how they had the broccoli for the salad bar if they have none in the kitchen?? This was a $12 plate so i would think getting me fresh broccoli out of their fridge wouldnt be such a horrible task.. and yet.. husband and I both agree... the place was filled with idiots working there. The waitress very nice and polite lady.. just not uber bright.

So then, we had to get presents for my daughters 10th birthday we decided to do a day early because Hub was home and she would be able to enjoy it sooner.We bought her a cake, which long story short, i was able to not partake in. This is the second birthday since nov. 4th that i have had to buy a cake and was able to stay away from... and for what???

This morning.. a 1.2 POUND LOSS!!! THATS WHAT!! Ill eat THAAAAAAAT cake! WOooo!